• 11:09:00 AM, Sunday, December 03, 2006
I hate what I'm feeling right now.
It sucks totally.
I don't even know why I'm in this stupid situation.
Do you even know what it feels like to care about sth so much, be busy over it for so long, preparing for everything cos I was looking forward to it, then get blamed for sth?
Ok maybe not blamed.
But still, just told that I just simply shouldn't have done anything.
And that none of this should have even happened in the first place.
Like what the fuck is the problem here.
This is fucking irritating I don't even know why I'm crying.
It sucks...
But I guess there's no one there to understand is there?
Not much of a use either.
I don't know how the fuck I'm going to even get down to my work.
Being busy with dance and preparing for the trip.
Can't anybody just give me a break?!?!
I'm actually freaking scared inside of my work next yr.
Of how I'm gonna catch up with everything.
Yet I'm not even doing anything this so called "holidays".
Because I'm freaking busy with everything.
But no, that's not even an excuse or reason of any kind.
I don't know how I'm gonna be able to cope with everything next yr.
And here I am, not doing anything to help with my schoolwork.
And what, I'll be gone in a week's time.
And I don't even know if I'll end up doing anything.
There's dance, there's shopping, there's packing, there's piano.
I'm just sick and tired.
Period.
♥ loved at : 11:09:00 AM
